feelings and emotions. do they really exist?

Recently I have come to realize that I am quite good at hiding my feelings. It is something I have been struggling with for probably the last five years. I have told myself that I had to be strong for everyone else in my life. My feelings became unimportant and unnecessary. I no longer want to live in this lifestyle because it is forcing me to be stuck in my ways. It is becoming difficult and hard moving forward and getting closer with people because I neglect to go deeper in expressing my feelings. 

I don't even know where to go with all this but I know that if I don't start somewhere then I will struggle with relationships forever. It is going to be a hard journey but luckily I live with wonderful people who want to help me overcome this obstacle. Thank you Jesus for this community that can walk with me through this adventure. God help me to let people help me. 

Mission Statement: disregard the spelling. :)

Admitting demands honesty.
Admitting requires a ruthless assessment of your condition.
Admitting is what happens when you've hit the wall,
when you have no energy left to pretend,
when you're done playing games,
when you no longer care what other people think,
when you've come to the end of yourself,
when you're ready to embrace the truth that you need help, and that on your own you're in serious trouble because you've made a mess of things.
-Rob Bell

So lay down your burdens, lay down your shame
All who are broken, lift up your face
Oh wanderer come home, you're not too far
So lay down your hurt, lay down your heart
Come as you are
-David Crowder