and God's love still goes on.

Sometimes I'm good at forgetting how big our God is when problems cloud my head. Today in Jesus Calling I read about the importance of not trying to solve your problems because we just aren't capable of it. While this is true, I still fail to do so. I often think, "Woe is me" and dwell in my own self pity while forgetting that God is still there loving me and waiting for me to turn back to Him so His glory can shine through it all. Of course this transformation cannot happen overnight but I like to think that each day gets a little better than the previous day but sometimes I take three steps backwards.

Recently I've been trying to refrain from becoming stressed about everything. I know that in the end it doesn't matter what grade I got on my paper or in my class or my gpa at the end of my college education. What matters is that I was glorifying God and turning towards Him in times of stress. It also doesn't matter what last minute decisions I make about who I should spend my time with, what words of anger or love come out of my mouth, how I let people treat me, or where money to buy food and pay bills is going to come from if I am not turning towards Him. 

God has shown me time and time again that all I need is Him. Why is it so hard to learn? Why can't it just be something at the fore front of my brain every morning when I wake up and every time I'm faced with a trial. Luckily, I am able to quickly remember that I am human. If this was an easy fix, I should probably be concerned. Constantly learning a lesson in life is a good way to remember I'm human and that God is bigger and He is taking care of my life. He's got the whole world in His hands. If the earth were the size of a golf ball, well basically it is but He still cares about each of us as if there were one of us.

Update: job interview on Tuesday (God is providing finances). applying for YWAM Africa and maybe YL Camp Intern in January (God is providing for my future). fun plans for winter break (God is providing time to relax and love on me). surrounded by Women of God and Sisters in  Christ who can pray for me at the drop of a hat (God is always good). 30 days of thankful complete and I am proud to accept the challenge of doing it for the next 305 days!

Thanks for reading! May God reveal to you all the ways He blesses you constantly this Christmas season.